This is me....rattled.

Yes, rattled.  There's good and ther'es bad...and I'm sure there's ugly thrown into the mix as well...just for good measure. 

You know how we pray, and we ask God to help us with the things we need, and he does, but not in the manner we were expecting?  Yeah.  Not that any of you would be surprised that I would be in that situation or anything...but here I am.  It's a mixed blessing.  It's a sad story, but I hope with a happy ending. 

It seems that throughout my life, as I have blogged about before, I have been put here on the face of this earth to care for others, to help others, to share my happiness with others.  I'm going to be very honest:  it's not an easy task, and there are times that I'm thinking,"Really, God????  You REALLY want me to do this?  Because I dunno if my heart and mind are up to the task..."  But then, I hear so many people tell me that I am strong and that I can do anything, and somehow, I muddle my way through the days, and I make it, and I would like to think that in the end, help and care has been given.  I have a lot of love, and I have a very big heart when it comes to caring.  It's probably too big, sometimes, if that's possible, because it gets broken here and there...some breaks, as with any fracture...are bigger than others and hurt more than others.  And some (if not all) just make you stronger in the end.  I'm hoping that's the case with the task that has been layed out in front of me this evening...but I'm game to take it on and see how God will work through me to make a difference in this life that is so valuable to me.

All that being said, I would like to ask for many prayers for this broken person who needs so very much love and care and a purpose for living, for God to direct me in the manner and direction in which I should go, and that in the process, lives will be blessed and changed forever, for the better. Maybe this is His way of keeping me from concentrating on my own hurts, for this case makes my hurts seem like tiny ones...so yes, prayers, please.

I am exhausted.  I will write more tomorrow....thank you for your prayers in advance, friends of mine!

Hey...tomorrow i s Fa-RIIIIIIII-dayyyyY!